I will it, I command it.

"Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen." - Albert Einstein

Monday, November 08, 2004

i've strayed away too long

it seems awful doing it for a man, but here i am doing exactly that. i figured i'd just as well admit it to myself, what the hell. he knows i'm cute but he doesn't know i've got love handles (haha!) and i really want him to think of me as that girl. i don't know if i should come as the present day cute and smart girl with no neck and plenty of waist and thighs. i guess it wouldn't hurt to try to see if he can see past all the fats. but i'd like to feel light too, and any excuse for a motivation wouldn't hurt. i'm off to the groceries to try to buy some food, but knowing me, i'll just go back to sleep again.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

bad day first day

bad omen I guess, as yesterday the Yankees lost what looked like a won game, and so, in my despair, I ate more than I should. Haha, I'm full of shit. I really just can't stick to a resolve. If the Yankees had won, I probably would have said I was trying to celebrate. So, off to the Bronx and on to my resolve. God, I really want to wear my sexy pink top in December! Maybe marry Derek Jeter.

Monday, October 18, 2004

inclusive dates

I'm starting on my diet and exercise routine (hopefully) today, 18th Oct. I will (hopefully again) get to my desired weight before 25th December. I expect to be enrolling in a gym in two weeks' time, just to help out with motivation and all. It seems silly at this point, really, having started and not finished for a considerable number of times.

What can I say? I am superficial. Go sue me, maybe I'll become emaciated looking for a cheap lawyer to represent me.

staying away from fried foods

Well, that's a problem. I don't know how to cook, and frying isn't really cooking. It's getting the pan really hot and the food item out of the plastic and/or paper bag, putting said item on the frying pan and making sure you're far enough from the stove just in case the oil decides to have some fun out of the frying pan. Now, I guess that's not really so bad if I'm not going to eat anything after lunch, but I need a stomach stapling which I can't afford, and which, given my presently sane state of mind I wouldn't do even if I can afford it. So that leaves me with things you can eat raw, things you can pop into the microwave or oven toaster and fried foods. I guess I have to be a bit more imaginative.

I will it, I command it.

This is a wishful thinking that goes for practically everything I do. I hope it turns out to be a self-fulfilling prophecy as I'm trying to lose 30-40 lbs. I probably have to look inside myself and put this losing weight in perspective, but all I can think of is, I want to look good in skinny clothes. I've been a fat girl all my life and I'm more attractive being slim. So, okay, let's try to do it. See where all this goes.

My current weight is: 146 lbs. My weight goal is: 105 lbs. I'll note my other measurements later.